Archive for January, 2010
I will always remember a scythian empire
The hiatus from here has been long overdue, somehow it seems that the more eventfully purposeful my life has become i can’t seem to come here to tell and write to myself just how great life has been come 2010.
It’s apparent that my elation of utter intense happiness has emerged from me finally filling the only void in my life that i’ve whined about way too often, that’ i’ve probably will still take time to fully understand and appreciate. Even up till now i find it a little crazy, but i nowhere ashamed or afraid to say that i do think that i am in love and i’m just glad that its not a one way street down a long and winding road.
It’s hard to describe the refreshing energy that has been imbued into me over the past couple of months. I finally feel that satisfaction of accomplishment, of academic excellence, work satisfaction and of course personal fulfillment.It’s rather like i’ve grown satisfied to a point just above an apparent comfort zone, put it this way, i’m working and studying enough to feel pushed and stressed at times, yet there’s still a refuge of space for me to indulge in other preferences in life.
I’m also going to get a new tattoo.
Honestly i’ve deliberated about this for a long time, and to me it feels right to get it even though i’ve strayed far away enough from what i’ve been born and bred into. At least now i promise myself that i would go there once a month, not as any obligation towards it but rather it’s a small step in going back towards something i’ve left way too far behind.
When i look at it i just want it to remind me that no matter where i head, all the trials and tribulations i face, there will always be someone to watch and guide away from astray. The decisions i make are my own, but i appreciate the idea of someone i can turn to at the back of heart and in the depths of my mind.
With a conclude, life is good.
Add comment January 30, 2010
The airborne toxic event
Little wonders like your colleague popping up from the cubicle beside you, sticking a post it on your nametag and uttering you the words ” listen to this ” really makes life that little bit more brighter, chirpier and radiant to the point that i describe my feelings in such a way.
I think my new hobby is trading youtube-band links with my friends around me, there should be an occupation for that.
So today didn’t begin with a bang but it’s great to see everyone back in the dreaded reassuming of our uneventful but contented lives. Of course we never wanted the holidays to end and work is just going to start coming over in and again, yet i find comfort in knowing that i have much to look forward to in the impending weeks ahead, including trying to pocket $700 during the new year.
So here’s the airborne toxic event, like my colleague said they are probably the new wave of an ” underground ” band like how the Killers came out 6 years ago, the singer sounds so familiar but i just can’t lay a finger on who it is…
And i just got reco-ed this reworked classic, sometimes i wished i could sing like a black man.
I’m gonna try to start my signing off again.
Sometime around midnight
-Soapfat
Add comment January 5, 2010
Ideas of a subconcious nature
I sit here knowing it’s been a while since I’ve last wondered, perhaps pondered about anything aside from my own activities and perpetual happiness in the recent weeks. Fact is i’ve been too busy making up for lost time, making up for things i’ve never done and things i’ve never said. In some ways my words have been meant for someone rather then everyone.
So i guess it’s a welcome relief that i sit here with a tired body, limp lower regions and an unassuming soul just thinking. Thinking, writing and putting some serif to html with regards to the context of my inconsistently active mind.
I’ve learnt more about myself from the recap’s of stories about my life in the recent conversations i’ve had and that i guess, was my own personal form of fulfilment in knowing that i have made progress in moving on from all that has happened in the past, that in some essence i am so much more fortunate on a comparative scale and that my derivation of happiness from the similar ecstatic pleasure of others is something i yearn to achieve.
I can’t begin 2010(do we call it 0-10 ” OH TEN” ?)without resolving any remaining issues with ‘09 that has lingered, and it’s safe to say i leave it behind with many new experiences that i will never forget in time to come. ‘09 can be summed up in the ” Fuck it, do it “, which basically was my idea that nothing would ever happen if i just sat on my ass and wait for fate to be tried and tempted, that i could take a deep dark breath and put the lingering problem behind me and that every chance was probably an opportunity i could never pass up. I’m particularly glad that the last issue has probably given me the best thing that ‘09 has given, and that’s a new lease, outtake and perception of life and love’s sweeter allure.
In the end, the failures of my prospects and ambitions gave me an idea as to what i really want in life, or as I’ve said time and again,” what i do not want in life “.
I’m happy in a way that i am still looking to find exactly what i’m searching for, who i am and who i want to be, because it only goes to show how much more i have to learn from her, from life and from the people around me.
I welcome ‘10 not with total jubilation, but just the comfort in knowing that i’m at least starting it on the right foot that i do not have to bother about the basic consequence of necessity and that i have the time and purpose to achieve more in the 363 days that remain.
Add comment January 3, 2010
